disappointed ingrato.

i am one ungrateful selfish asshole.

more than once i've ask for more than what can be given and yet more than once i got disappointed.

it pisses me off especially that i know that they are going gaga trying to give what i have demanded yet being ungrateful as i am, i never cared about the efforts. i never gave a damn to what they went through. i hate myself for that.

yet here i am, irritated to the bones knowing that i'll never get what i want. fuck. im so used to empty promises that i dont even expect anything.

yet here i am again. disappointed. i think it's man's nature to expect and believe. i hate hoping. the happy feeling of being able to get what you want is not worth it for the disappointment you'll have to pay after knowing you can't get it.

oh well... fuck