fuck. why does it have to be written in the stars

2:25pm
i saw sex and the city last night. i slept late.
now, i have to finish drawing 20 images on construction. i got 4 done so thats sixteen to go.

2:26
i got the chance to use the net. wow.

2:28
went to tickle.com and thried one of their test. having sex in the city in my mind, i tried a test called: the zodiac match test. well, its worth a try. i dont really believ in this kind of crap but hey, nothing to loose (except for a little golden thingy-time). as i go over the questions, she came to my mind. shit. not now.

2:29
why am i hoping my best match wii turn up to be a sagittarian? well for one, she is sagittarian. shit. well all i can do is hope. fuck


2:32
im waiting for this computer to load my test results. why am i hoping? im supposed to be a pessimistic. damn.

2:33
sagittarius

at this exact moment, time stopped.
i smiled.
i laughed.
then i stopped.
so what if a sguittarian is my best match?
we wont be together because of that.
shit.
funny thing is, i new from the start that she's my best match. i was just too stupid to realize that before i took the test. its not really written in the stars. i can be a perfect match for anybody and so can she. its just that i dont want any body.

i want her.
whatever her sign is.

then i wondered. how can i make her take the damn test? will a taurus match her?

nah.
that wont matter.

2:33
time went on and here i am. hoping.
fuck.

kulangot ka ba sa pader?

Me mga taong makakasalubong tayo habang dumadaan tayo sa landas na tinatawag na buhay.
sa mga makakasalubong natin, yung ilan, sasabay sa paglakad at pagtakbo. yung ilan pipigilan tayo.
hehe. topak ako ngayon.
dun sa ilang sasabay sa atin, hindi natin alam kung hanggang kelan sila sasabay. sila na ang bahala magdesisyon kung hanggang saan ng buhay natin at buhay nila ang magiging magkasama. ganun din tayo sa kanila. nasa sa atin kung hanggang kelan tayo makikisabay sa kanila.kaso hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon pareho tayo sa iniisip at gusto nila. may mga taong sawang-sawa ka na (gaya sa akin) at gusto mo nang mawala sa paningin pero para lang silang kulangot sa pader na madikit at mahirap tanggalin. may mga tao na man na gusto nating makasama pero hanggang dun nalang talaga.
wala namang permanente sa mundo. at kahit kulangot pa yan sa pader, matatanggal din yan (gaya ko).
kaya dun sa mga kasabay mo pa, matibay sila. dun sa mga umalis na, sori na lang. ganyan talaga...