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8 out of 30. yes folks. i got an eight out of thirty for a unit test in history, criticism and theory. funny because i was kinda glad. i was expecting a zero. well i have a good excuse. one: i had slept for only an hour before the test. and yup, i was late. i had to finish a plate on design the night before so i didnt had the chance to glance at my friend's photocopied work. i dont take notes. i prefer to listen. the exam by the way was the type where you're supposed to memorize all this terms and events. shit. im not the memorizing type. why would i memorize something that sooner or later, i would forget? if i was asked to memorize a poem for a play, what use will be the poemtof me after the play? if i were asked to memorize some 5 pages of notes on western architecture, what will be its use to me after the test? after i graduate? well, of course there would be a use. but the condition is that i remember it. which is most likely not gonna happen. there would be a possibility that some actually stays inside this head but then again it might not.

after giving invalid reasons for the stupid score i got. i wil now try my best to convince you that i am perfectly okay.

im okay.

convinced?

I know. maybe im not.

i just found out that i am pushy for most people. i do not understand this. fine. i am denying the fact that i am pushy. they told me that i push them to do things they dont want to do. shit. have you guys ever thought of how you treat me? considering i am not an entity in your perspective, dont you think that it is justifiable that i act this way? by the way. i also found out that i give out this superiority complex to anybody i meet. how dare you compare me to all of you. i do not believe that i am superior to anybody for that matter. i may be better than you in some or most fields but i never said that i was or am superior. but what can i do? it is you who think that i think that i am superior.

im not superior.

im different.

yes. i agree with everyone. i am denying my existence as human. i may be indeed a fertilizer or something far worse. i may even deny my existence. it does no matter. as long as i am different from you. i would never want to be like anybody. yes. it sounds like i feel superior than anyone but its not.

im just different.

thank God.